I am free as a bird. Well actually on tuesday after my last assesment but that is just showing videos that I have already finished so it will be fun. So this holidays will be the first in a little while where I will have fun and be happy! And lots of it. I want to party and make art and music...and not get too totally lazy.

I had a little flirts the other day and it was v nice. It lifted me out of a little spirally spot. It reminded me of that world of open, flowing potential and flutters of excitement that I had forgotten about. Woo! Nostalge. I felt a bit younger which was nice. I forgot things which had been plaguing me.

I had 12 hours sleep and I don't know why i am still tired. Maybe I overslept. How boring.

I don't really have any news...just taking it day by day..

Current Mood: drained

I had a really intense dream last night that consisted of lover and ex lover bashing each up over me, the object of their desire. So full on with heaps of blood and aggressive screaming. It was very odd and meaningful and just weird. It was kind of cool to be wanted that much but also just disturbing. I was heaps drunk last night and I guess that heightened the dream. I ranted to Poppy in a drunken way which is always fun as she is a great listener.

Am a bit tired and at work now. There aren't that many calls so it's a bit slow and boring. It's good we can use the computer between calls but. I am happy I have made $30 in commissions in the last two days..yay more money.

tiredy.

Current Mood: complacent

Herro. This is so familiar, being a bit hungovery at Werrington in the morning..I am waiting to have a rehearsal at ten o clock..loud sound art etc which will be fun in the big space and nice to hang with Brookie! Can't believe we are playing at the gradshow tonight, what an awesome gig as it is more low key than a pub gig but still very exciting! Arghh, blerghhh. I will have a little snooze in here afterwards I think.

Better go check on my metal bowl.

Ciao.

Current Mood: tired

Oh no. I accidently and stupidly drank from Brooke's water bottle and no I too have raw throat. OOOwww it hurts. I started researching my essay this morning and now my brain is collapsing. One of my freinds is going to Japan in a week and my other is coming back from England. I wanna travel!!!!!

Oh yes, the phrase "meat, glass, puppet." came to me in a dream the other day and I liked it..bit grotesque.

I am off to write in my sculpture journal.

This resembles how my brain feels:

Arghh, I ave a bung foot. Ahh it hurts. To walk. Jess's party was fun..it (the house) has good vibes.I am slow at kick starting for uni this semester. It is week 3..must do more school work!

Everyone come to this! It'll be fun.

arggh. making websites for uni is sooooo boring and tedious..i have a short attention span. although working on the sex box installation will be fun. and finishing the work for first draft...need to do that too.

i am house sitting in lilyfield for most of this week.. it should be fun to have a change of scene and i can make lots of yummy sound/noise..

love. love. love. am glad friends met Abram. yummy yummy.

aggravate indecent.

say my naME IN YOUR SLEEP. bhjbkehjbwhwoiwbn. no comment.

Seriously confused...wishful..realistic. bored of all systems. want to be suprised. by someone or something. sound makes me happy. make sound sitting around. plants with no plants!

Current Mood: frustrated

Hey.

Am feeling happy right now. The restless video is looking to be really tight and it was a positive experince filming it...listening to lots of great music etc. I hung out with an amazing person last night at Tameka's bday thing. Twas awesomely fun. Gotta do more of that with friends..drink in parks at night with candles and good food etc. I have do catch up on heaps of uni work this week....argh. It should be fairly enjoyable though. My head feels like it is constantly being pressed down upon today. I have been thinking about the really unfair things that have happened to people I know and people in general and I want to do something pro-active about it. Have a cry? haha.

Blahahahhah am in class so should prob do something now.

Bye byes.

Current Mood: impressed

Who is hungover? Who is tired? Who has been doing school work slowly and painfully all day anyway? And who sits outside a house for no reason until their friend randonly arrives to then go for a beer but doesn't think anything of it? Me.

My brain and body are dying a little bit everyday. And i cannot go home and relax becaause I must finish the last of an assesment due tomorrow (won't take too long) and rehearse with Jess. At least for our rehearsal I have making lots of sound bymyself so it should sound different and more developed.

Who falls in love all over again everytime they see someone? (not someone i have haaaaaaaaaaad.) It makes all the difference. The whole situation is more pure. (untainted and lovely.)

I equate the city with booze on many levels..what would happen if I moved there??? hmmmmmm.

Looking forward to reshooting 'Restless'. I know what I am doing this time so I will be more confident.

Beautiful installation by Liu Jianhua. In my humble opinion Japanese sculptors are some of the bloody best sculptors.

Current Mood: hopeful

Don't know why I am 'excited'. I think the mood descriptor always gives a big insight into someone's head space. It is not an immense, driving or shameless excitement, it is a quiet fairly subdued excitement, but excitement nonetheless. It is for a few small reasons. I got my first solo show at a gazza in newtown. I am seeing seeing Wilco this saturday night and am going to an exhibition opening with free grog tomorrow night and I am pretty damn sure the art will be good, knowing the artist. It is also an excitement of shame and doubt and (unfulfilled possibility...is possiblity ever fulfilled while it is still possibility?)....rarely a good combination. I am home from uni nice and early today. Have had a bit of a gutful of uni recently, am glad for my one break.

Sour memories become welcome and comforting often fairly soon after they are sour, sour memories to be savoured. I like thinking abstract mmmmmmm. I like miscommunications that occur when inebriated. I like how i might sound a bit drunk right now but i am not. I like that Brooke makes a post about being a coffee junkie and that we all read it. I like people..some people in particular and I don't ever want them to go away.

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: wilco